The Moment

Salam,

All the best wishes to everyone...

Forgive me for all broken promises, bad thoughts, ignorance

Thank you for all kindness shared...

Today I had a thought...

I always had a thought, on and off  of this worldly existence....tend to be confusing if I'm not careful. Anyway, theres nothing to worry there....

What was I doing during the thought ~ nothing much actually, just got back from the city centre doing some purchase for some activity at the end of the year.

I was looking at the roadside, at some of the cars and people in general in the area. Some car looked better than mine, and some looked average. Nothing new there....if they are better than me, then its fine with me, if they are less fine than me, I will have the thinking they definitely are having less debt than me... ha ha.

Suddenly it just came to me, in that one moment, a splurry of thought...
'How do I sustain my standard of living when I retire?'
'Will I have enough savings for my needs?"
"Will I continue to have monthly commitments that I have to worry?"

These thoughts filled my head for a little while...

Then suddenly, just like a gush of wind in the middle of a big thunderstorm, this thought strike me hard...
"You're worried about your retirement days...."
"Have you worried about your savings for the day after?"

.......it felt like a big hammer had knocked on my head....

I was stunned.....its such a great reminder....that my 'due date' is indeed getting near.

"Tiap-tiap diri akan merasai mati, dan Kami menguji kamu dengan kesusahan dan kesenangan sebagai cubaan; dan kepada Kamilah kamu semua akan dikembalikan." (Surah al-Anbiyaa': ayat 35)

“Setiap yang bernyawa itu pasti akan mengalami kematian.”(QS. Ali ‘Imran: 185)

Therefore, to all my family and friends, please forgive me..

If I have debts, I will try to repay them as much as possible, as long as I can remember....

If I failed to pay, I seek your forgiveness and may you release me from the obligation, and for that to The God Al-Mighty Allah SWT, I seek the forgiveness for you, and may he repay you many times over...

Be kind to my kids and family...

WIth that, I pray that I be happy in the companion and blessing of Allah. May I be forgiven and become a prayer and saviour to my family.

I am different, and will always be different. And that is as exactly as how Allah created me.

Astarghfirullah Hal'Azim
Alhamdulillah
AllahuRabbi Muhamaddan Nabiyyi
Aku bersaksi bahawa tiada tuhan melainkan Allah dan Nabi Muhammad itu pesuruh Allah.

STRESS

Stress

By defination, what is a “stress”?
According to the Cambridge Dictionary - http://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/british/stress_1 - is:
“great worry caused by a difficult situation, or something which causes this condition”

So, stress = woryy

Why do we worry?
Thinking outside the box, there’s nothing to worry.

In simple sense, life is all about managing change. It happens all the time, everytime.

What’s more important is the way on how do we want to accept the change. Especially changes that we didn’t like or not expected.

But then again, there is fate and effort.

The last “Rukun Iman” is Qada’ & Qadar. While there is nothing to worry, its is obliged that we must struggle hard to achieve things.

The process of that struggle is important.

But at the end of the day, it’s the acceptance that is the utmost important, regardless of the outcome. We are only human on this world. We are the servant to God.

If things turns out to be good, we must be thankful, insaf.

If things turns out to be bad, we must be thankful, insaf.

In goodness, be thankful for being blessed with the success.

In goodness, insaf – for being given the chance to savour, enjoy the sweetness of success, for being chosen to be better.

In failure, be thankful that its not worse than that, count other blessings that we have.

In failure, insaf – for being given the chance to savour, enjoy the bitterness of failure.

So what is the bottom line to all this – we the servant, has no strength, energy, clarity of anything. It’s all up to him. We worked, we spend and spent, but nothing belongs to us, nothing owed to us.

After all, can we create that ounce of air to breathe?

Can we create that 1 grain to eat?

None and never is the answer.

Thus, we pray and brings our heads down. If this is the things that I have to do, I’ll do it in the greatest honor of God. Good or bad, I’m the servant seeking the divine forginess.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, kepadaMu aku tunduk dan patuh. Darimu aku datang, KepadaMu aku kembali. Tiadalah aku daya upaya. Aku sujud berserah.

Me Going To Land In Planet 40 .....

Salam,

I'll reach that precious milestone, turning point soon.

Some people say, life begins at 40.

Others then say, if you don't change for the better by that mark, caveat emptor..... "sendiri mau ingat la".... or in other words .... you're reminded Bro....

With that I like to share this from the Holy Quran....

"Dan Kami wajibkan manusia berbuat baik kepada kedua ibu bapanya; ibunya telah mengandungnya dengan menanggung susah payah dan telah melahirkannya dengan menanggung susah payah. Sedang tempoh mengandungnya berserta dengan tempoh menceraikan susunya ialah dalam masa tiga puluh bulan. Setelah dia besar sampai ke peringkat dewasa yang sempurna kekuatannya dan sampai ke peringkat umur empat puluh tahun, berdoalah dia dengan berkata: Wahai Tuhanku, ilhamkanlah daku supaya tetap bersyukur akan nikmatmu yang engkau kurniakan kepadaku dan kepada ibu bapaku dan supaya aku tetap mengerjakan amal soleh yang Engkau redai; dan jadikanlah sifat-sifat kebaikan meresap masuk ke dalam jiwa zuriat keturunanku. Sesungguhnya aku bertaubat kepadamu dan sesungguhnya aku dari orang-orang Islam (yang tunduk patuh kepadamu)."
Qs.46:15 AL AHQAF Ayat 15

In English:

"And We have commended unto man kindness toward parents. His mother beareth him with reluctance, and bringeth him forth with reluctance, and the bearing of him and the weaning of him is thirty months, till, when he attaineth full strength and reacheth forty years, he saith: My Lord! Arouse me that I may give thanks for the favour wherewith Thou hast favoured me and my parents, and that I may do right acceptable unto Thee. And be gracious unto me in the matter of my seed. Lo! I have turned unto Thee repentant, and lo! I am of those who surrender (unto Thee)"

You can listen to the audio at Here ... select Sura/Chapter 46, Verse 15.

So, emmm ... to The Al-Mighty God, I surrender, La haula wala quwata illa billah.